Letter #5

Dearest angel,

Today is September 13, 2013, the last day that I feel you move in my tummy. The first day of the procedure is this morning. They’re going to put mommy under sedation and put you to sleep peacefully. I am not ready to let you go, but I know it is for the best. Daddy and I love you so much, and just want the very best for you always.

Life after this is going to be so different for me. Not feeling you move around, not rubbing my stomach hoping that you feel my love for you, or even talking to you… it’s all going to change. But like I said before, you are so precious that god did not want to give you up. 

I realized something last night, while looking at your daddy I realized that you look exactly like him. You have his nose, and most of his facial features from what I’ve seen on your ultrasounds. I have not told your daddy that yet because of the procedures but you look just like him. You are one handsome boy. 

We will meet you soon and finally be able to hold you. Until then, you will always be in our hearts and will always be watching over us. We love you son.

Love,

Mommy and daddy xoxo