Letter #3

Dearest Jr,

Today was one of the greatest day of my life. I married your daddy! But that’s not all that happened. After the rehearsal your grandparents, daddy, and I had our memorial service for you. We bought white balloons and wrote what we wanted to on them. I couldn’t write much since I didn’t know what to say exactly, but my balloon said “MY MOOSE, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, LOVE YOUR MOMMY.” Your dad’s said “I love you so much, we will see you sooner than you know.” I’m not sure what your grandparents wrote but I know that every balloon said “I love you” somewhere on it. It was a bittersweet experience, to tell you the honest truth I was not ready. But I will never be ready to let you go, you are my baby, you will always be my baby.

After writing on the balloons we tied them to the CD of your defective ultrasounds and let them go. It was hard, the balloons weren’t floating away. It was like you were saying that you weren’t ready to leave either. I was afraid that the balloons were going to come back down to the ground but slowly they started to lift up. Higher and higher you went. The wind blew just enough to carry you away.

As your father and I watch we held hands so tighter than we ever have. We cried a few tears, while your grandparents cried a lot, and watched you slowly disappear back into the clouds where you belong. Your great-grandma said a prayer to her mother for her to watch over you until we get there, but I know that you are going to be the one watching over us. Helping make all of our future decisions and leading us down the right path. 

The wedding went perfectly, there were no hiccups even though mommy was so nervous she was shaking in her boots. As of September 7, 2013 I am married to your daddy and will now be named Jennifer Kiva Naquin. 

We love you sweet, sweet boy. 

Xoxo,

Mom and dad