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Hello, My name is Jenni Vallier soon to be Jenni Naquin. I am only 20 years old but I am a wife and a mother, or was a mother of one. As of September 6, 2013, I am 20 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Yesterday, my husband and I found out that our wonderful baby boy is most likely not going to live long enough for us to hold him. He has a very very rare condition where in early development his kidneys did not form properly. One of them did but it is covered in cysts and is not functioning. With being said that, not functioning kidneys means no digestion which leads to no amniotic fluid developing in my womb, which leads to the final condition, not enough lung development.

This blog is not for pitty, its not to scare anybody. This blog is how I am going to cope. My husband works long hours 6 days out of the week, he has some time off right now but I am afraid for when he leaves for work next week. As you can imagine, I am in a limbo state 80% of the day, having a emotional breakdown 10% of the day, while the rest of the day I am on this weird emotional roller coaster where I go from sadness, to happiness, to being ridiculously positive, then back to sadness. Some times I go from sadness to being just completely numb.

 So if you're reading this I ask of a few things from you, not for anybody to say "I am praying for you" that makes my grieving process worse, if my letters and journal entries make you emotional and you feel like you want to pray or wish or think, Please do, just don't let me know. And lastly, any words of advice, of kindness, of encouragement will help more then you can ever imagine.

Thank you so much for sharing in the hard time with me, I really do appreciate it.